Friday, December 19, 2008
11:54 AM
hello world
i just want to say how sucky you are.
i know im just a character in a dark room. alone in a corner. crying to no one but myself and the wall. insignificant. unseen. unheard. unknown. it hurts but its ok. im used to it. just leave me alone. i dont need you sympathy. dont bother looking for me.
sometimes i want to scream at you. curse you. for all the things you done to me. why must you bring me to this screwed up place? but it doesnt matter now. all of this will become surreal soon.
sometimes i dont even know if this is reality or just a dream. i cut myself to see my blood still flowing and know that im still alive. and not dreaming. another wasted day of a wasted life.
they always say how exciting life can be. how life is filled with joy and blah blah blah. well thats all fake. dont pretend otherwise. im sick of all your lies and facades. maybe its better everyone wears a mask so we dont see the bad sides of others.
i dont blame my parents. or my friends. its not their fault things turned out this way. its all about me. im just a useless speck of dust on earth. which everyone steps on and doesnt notice.
time is running out. and world this is my last favour i shall do to you. maybe i should just go off alone. like i always was.
so goodbye world. wasnt nice knowing you.
